Stressing and work

I have been stressing about work... I hate it when I have no idea what to do and it was not help when the person training you does not have a 100% for sure right way to do things them selive and everyone else around you treats you like you should know these and gets fussy with you when you mess up and be one has shown you what to do or how to do something.  And everyone tells you a different way and the tells you then what the other person tell you was and or is wrong and not done that way....   I am tired of this and it is just making me stressed out and hate working again.  I hate it right now and starting to even hate it here.... I hope it gets better soon...

Why do some people grow act like 2 year Olds.

So we are one the youngest people working here.  I am finding most of the people we work with are cool and claim and I like them.  But there is one couple who are acting like 2 year olds and when you doing another thing they don't like and not nice to boot and call the camp Manger like he was daddy to get there way.. and leaving note every where when anyone else steps out of line or does not know something.  Sadly these people are 30 or more years older than me so I have issues with telling them to step off when I should.  I wish they would act their age and not their shoe size.

Feeling on losing the drive to run.. or am I just feeling low?

I lose my want to run... more than lose the drive I should say. Because I do still dream of running and think about it all the time! Just when I think about put on the shoes and going through getting dressed I feel unmotivated to do so I feel like poop for blowing my big goal I really wanted and needed to do to show my self I can do things.  But I guess living in a RV with my hubby and kids and work camping I should not let this stuff bugs me so much.  Because we are doing what is right for the family as a whole here.  Big but I feel like I felled my self here and why keep trying that is all I do... is fell... I got to say I hate ADHD and the ups and downs it comes with.  I feel like all I am good at is F-inf up everything in my path.  And I never meet many of my goals I set for my self ether.  My husband to great he is so loving and tries his best to keep me happy and going he and the kids are a real blessing in my life without them I would not be as well out as I am. 

Running....

I have not felt like running lately.  Mainly because I had a great goal I told my self I would be doing this year my first big race.  It was going to be the Charleston bridge run.  And with everything that happened this year and last year I did not sign up for it.  And it will be the 2 of April and I found my self sadder and sadder and less and less want to run because I am starting to feel why should I keep going there is no point anymore.  I will never get anywhere anyway.  This was my before my next birthday goal. Like every other thing in my life I blow up.  I give up on my self what's the point anyway.  God seems to not even bother trying to help or protect me anyways why sure I care to do things for me really.  Every time a try god seems to do everything in his power to throw down and f-up my life so I have in hope.  I feel like a bug on the shoe of God.