Covergirl love it!

I have loved this program they have been doing this year! :) I grow up with my mom using it and I started using Covergirl with I started using makeup and it has been a good brand! I can't believe it had been around 50 years already but I can see why they have been around that long! Awesome stuff and I hope they are around for a 50 more!

I having been feeling like WHO am I now!

I am feeling more and more I have lost my self in life! With the most awesome man I am married to, my son who 8 and is all around good kid and my little girl who is 4 and busy and crazy loving and silly! I am very have with my life it is not like I am unhappy with it I am not at all. I just not sure who I am and where I am going in it! I have in idea what I am going to go after my youngest starts school.

I have been a SAHM for 8 years now(worked to a very short time on weekends). I have not worked in 4 going on 5 years and when I did I worked at a fabric store. That job costed me money because I love to sew and craft. Plus it really didn't pay a lot ether. :( . So I have no Fing clue what to do. I am have not real work skills on paper :( other that cashier and I didn't want to work at some suck A$$ job that was not pay more that 6 something bucks an hour. I don't want to just still home doing nothing ether after both kids are in school.

On top of this all I hate that I am almost 50 pounds heavier that I was 10 years ago. And with that said I am not happy with what I see in the looking at me in the mirror. My hubby tells me then do something about it then. If only it where that easy right. On one hand he is right and on the other it is not at all. I still hate what I see looking back at me. And I wish I could just tear out this mask and halloween costume I am wearing and just be me again. Because I can't do the things I only could and set around on the internet and FB.. I do this because I am just can't do things I want to do. So it be comes this catch 22 you know!

And I wish I could go to collage or something but I was in resource(not sure if the spelling is right) and in TN you don't not get credits for it so I am missing 4 years worth of English, Math and Science at the least. I really think the schools felled me too.

I say this because I was labeled with a learning problem and most teacher did not ever bother trying to really help me ether.

So no one ever trying to help me with even thing help me get in to collage or ever asked me if I wanted too.

I have one idea where to start or what to do about it!

But as I said I do love my life right!

I just have on idea where to go from here and who I am out side the home.

I am the lady with the kids and car and that does thing for them.

That is all it feel like I am some times!